A day of reflection did a world of good for me. I sat quietly and took a look over my life’s shoulder. I looked back on my life and asked myself some important questions. Here is what I discovered. Was I happy with the direction my life was going in? Yes was the answer. I may have gotten here my own way and had a few obstacles along the way, but they were the best teachers on my path. I also had to circle around the block a few times here and there until I got it right and understood what the Universe was bringing to me. But I have learned that that is sometimes the only way.
Did I feel happy with the choices I had made? Yes was the answer again. I really try to live without regrets and look at every decision as the best I could make at the moment. It may have been that at the time I did not know any other way, or that I needed to learn more. If I made a poor choice it was another opportunity to learn. Knowing this takes a little pressure off. Everything I do in life is not defined by right or wrong, but instead of now or later.
Am I living authentically? Yes again. I do my best. I try to have my actions match my words. I check in regularly with my intentions. I am the first to step back and take another look at my behaviors, my expectations and my ego. I know when I am off tract and usually am quite uncomfortable staying in that place for too long. Once I know my truth, it is difficult to continue being false, challenging to deny, and unauthentic to play a game with myself or others. I just don't have it in me.
I want to be able to look back on my life one day and say to myself, “You did good! There were moments here and there, where you stumbled or sidestepped, but you got back up, got back on track and kept going. You gave more than you took and you answered the call.”
I don’t know what the future has in store. I am excited when I think of all the possibilities. But in the meanwhile, I live in this very moment, right here, right now. As i look into my reflection of Self I see my imperfections as beautiful reminders, my mis-steps as part of finding my rhythm and my pauses as opportunities to go deeper. Perhaps you see a bit of yourself in this reflection as well. I get excited when I think of the connection we share on some level. I trust that the Universe is weaving between us a bond that is necessary for the good of us all; to be able to relate to one another and to support, celebrate and share what the next step may be. Onward!
Blessings ~ Lisa
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